i'd rather be with few and happy 

than be with many and feel so alone.

what a wonderful summer it's been and oh, how excited i am about the fall! again, my apologies for the immense neglect i've set upon xanga lately. it's not that i don't enjoy writing, because i do. i guess the part of motivating myself to just sit down and write is the hardest part. usually my best writings, however, come when i feel that i have nothing to write about.

no money. hardly, anyway. it doesn't feel very good. on a lighter note, i've purchased three textbooks for close to only one-hundred dollars via the internet [with my Hope scholarship, mind you]. for all of you who have yet to experience the purchasing of college textbooks, that's a very good deal. normally i'd be paying three times that much through the school. and there you have it: my nerdy [though very helpful] tip of the week. :)

there's something about having time to myself and enjoying the act of doing hardly anything that really captures my interest. i think a lot, and to be able to sit back and watch the world turn is something that i find to be simply intriguing.

i want a swing that i can just sit on to read a book. overall, i just want to read more. i don't care where. as long as it's peaceful without distractions, i have no complaints. there's so much out there that i've yet to take in. time's drifting away; being taken for granted. there's no justification for this.

there's something artistic about a subway. i believe the culture of where most subways are located is very unique. i would never want to live somewhere where i was required to rely on a subway. but sometime in my life i'd like to ride one, just to experience it. i'll take a camera.

p.s. how about the new look?  : )

almost a month since my last post? to my audience, i'm sorry to disappoint you.
hopefully the things i have to say today will be able to help mend your broken hearts.
=)

well, camp has definitely been an incredible experience thus far. i've been there since the end of May [aside from weekends] and the people that i've met are really great. we're a really tight-knit group; a family even.
i'm laughing all the time and i feel myself growing.
i've been really sad to see some of the kids go. the innocence and greatness of each of them is uplifting. some of the things that kids have opened up and told has made me stop and acknowledge how good my life is. the things that kids go through in their lives today is unreal.
so much pain, hurt, and neglect.
i'm glad that i am being used to help minister to these kids, and overall
i'm just really excited to watch and see what more God has to show me this summer.

i've gone through other things outside of camp that have truly surprised me and thrown me for a loop. but i'm praying and asking God to help me learn to just hand things over to Him.
things are hard to hand over though when you're grasping onto them so hard with questions and confusion.
but there's no reason for blame or for questioning.
just let go,
and let Him take care of the rest.

i love to pack for an exciting time ahead.
wish me the best, because this will be a new experience;
a new challenge.

i'm ready for all of it, i think.
no, i can't do it on my own. but i have no need to rely on myself.
all of my reliance,
hope,
joy,
casting of burdens,
bliss
is in You.

hey, see you in ten days. =]   

my nerves are starting to get more and more anxious for camp to begin. not only anxious, but nervous as well.
i'm starting to really discover how much of a 'home body' i am. because of this, i'm curious to know how i'm going to handle being at camp the majority of my summer.
i just love my family and being around them.

certain music makes me feel so good.
ever had a song that made you go 'this is going to be my theme song
for the next few months'?
i love that.

several of my friends who are still in high school are graduating this week.
i'm so excited for them. what a milestone, you know?
at the same time, however, i'm bothered because one of them is my best friends. and at the end of this summer, he's going to be going to south georgia for college.
but what am i saying? he'll be back.
they'll all be back. :)

i remember when the highlight of the school day was going outside to play on the playground to see how high you could swing and how high you could climb on the gymnastic bars. it was a thrill; an exciting thing.
who says life can't be that way? i say it's time to simplify this life.

the weather affects my mood so easily. i wake up in the morning feeling energized, and then glance out the window to see rainy streets and cloudy skies.
but then here i am, waking up to such glorious beauty that cannot be summed up into words.
and for these days i'm very grateful.